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September 30, 2005
OMG thats like sooo GORGEOUSTH!!!
Thursday... Last Week...
Didnt do crap all day. Woke up and got ready and wanted to head off to the mall to check out the new Borders. Alex calls.. picked him up.. Got to the mall.. Got some food at the food court. Went to the Borders and looked around. It was decent looking up in there, but not really.. I wanted to buy some sort of book but didnt know which one. Until i walked passed a book by Anthony Bordaurin. I love his show. A Cooks Tour and Fox has a show inspired by his book with the same name, Kitchen Confidential. Picked it on up, training must sucked because the cashier was really slow.
Headed off to the Globe in Pomoma, i guess Alex wanted to get some cans. Never been there. Got lost and was sooo annoyed!! Made it there eventually. I get a call from Derek.. He set me up with a hair appointment with his cousin. HURRAY!!
Dropped off Alex.. Got home to get ready because we were goign to go clubbing. Headed off to La Puente.. Got my hair did. My hair was soooo long!! Im glad it was finally done. Watched Dancing with the Stars results and looks like John O'Hurly won, which i thought was kinda bullshit. Kelly Monaco didnt get to enjoy her win with all the crap of voting this and that. Whatever...
Ok heres the thing.. The club we were going to tonight.. Called VIP in Riverside was a gay club. I know im sure you guys are wondering. Is Anh gay?? Honestly.. Yes i am... Im a Lesbian trapped in a dude body.. haha.. Anyways.. if you didnt get that im sorry, and if you believed that i am.. then you must not really.. uhh.. "Hang" out with me.. yet... So yeah.. Junior... the dude that cuts my hair is gay. I came with because i wanted to dance, havent for awhile. Also its pretty mcuh common knowlegde lots of straight girls go to dance there and know they wont be hit on. Hey i was game!
Headed on over there. And wow.. Anything you can think of pretty much happened on a clean level. I noticed a lot of mexican dudes.. then again it was Riverside... and i remember watching Mind of Mencia and he said it true. Latina gays are more flameboyant than others.
Headed outside to the Patio and they had Karoeoke or whatever you spell it. What song was playing?? Josh Groban - "When You Say you Love me" It was being sung horribly, yet still was pretty funny. What else did i observe?? Lotta waxed eyebrows on dudes and lotta umm.. dudes haircuts for the chicks. Funny thing here. I saw Michelle Armstrong... I knew her since middle school and man she was butched out.. But it wasnt pretty a surprise for me.
A new favorite drink.. Grey Goose Tonic!!! Junior was drinking it all night and man.. I love Vodka, and it had a sweet taste and man.. LOVE IT!! I have nothing much more to say about the night. There was a handful of cute chicks.. Pretty much danced my butt off. Talked to Michelle and she was like havent seen you hear ever. Well yeah duh!! We both were there for a reason... To get some chicks.. haha.. Will i be coming back?? Not sure.. But im always down to dance somewhere...
very interesting....
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September 29, 2005
"True love is finding the soul's counterpoint in another"
Wednesday.... Last Week....
A day of class... My Econ class.. bored and not really paying attention again. Its quite sad... After role, about half of the class ducks out. I choose to stay because i didnt get ready in the morning to be in a class for 15 mins. AND the class only last an hour when it should be at least an hour and a quarter.
Headed on over to Leslies hung for awhile. Actually.. man it was like hours!! Its all good though. Its fun and such. Was over there for a few hours... Jovana calls to say whats up and we set a date to hung out at 8ish. Before that me and Leslie go to pick up her little brother. Went over there and picked him up.
Jovana and I were suppose to meet up at the Gardens to chatter and catch up on stuff. However i went to pick her up instead. Headed over to the Gardens. I think i was smelling the Paris Hilton perfume on her. Man, i am soo addicted to it. Its ridonkulous!! Headed off to Johnny Rockets and played musical chairs there. First sat in a booth... then went to the counter but Jovana couldnt figure how to sit in the chair... then movied to the far end which were better seats... Got some onion rings and a Oreo Shake with extra oreos!!!
Proceeded to catch up... Her trip to Mexico.. and my drama.. Got some decent insight.. but nothing i wanted to hear... I wanted to her say.. why dont you just keep the lines of communication open and see what happens.. OH WELL!!
So i learned something!! Like you know the theres like this little 57 on the ketchup bottle.. You bang that against your hand made into a fist thats sitting on the table. It works sooo well!! Mr. Jake there taught us that!! Its soo instilled in my head.. Anywho... a little more discussing.. We made plan to go to Canada, New York, and Washington DC. She met someone who lives in Quebec over in Mexico. So heres the plan.. In December into Christmas and New Years. Jo is gonna be up in Quebec and im sure im gonna still have finals. So im going to meet her up in Montreal.. then take a bus ride over to New York over Christmas and spend Christmas in New York. Its going to be SOOO COOL!!! Snow in New York over Christmas. Thats a REAL Christmas!! Then head on over to Washington DC for New Years with her Grandpa!! Im soo semi excited!! Like a 3 week vacation!! HURRAY!!
Then its like 9. Wedding Crashers was at 940. We walked around and did alittle shopping and checked out Borders. Not opened yet! Off to AMC... before i get over there.. I see Mike Avena... Dude not trying to talk head.. but he gotten soo drugged out!! I swear.. He needs to stop hanging out with my semi former Raving group.. He tells me hes watching Wedding Crashers and going up to San Francisco for a party.. Random much?? Anywho.. he was with a chick. Didnt want to interrupt..
Dude like the movie... There was like no movie trailers!! I was semi kinda mad!! Anyways.. the movie.. I loved it!! It was hilarious!! Very sweet.. and had hot chicks!! I mean cmon thats like a perfect movie.. Rachel McAdams was very pretty in it and her boyfriend played by the dude in Alias and in Kitchen Confidental played a great heel. The tips of the Crasher were interesting too. What made me laugh?? Dude i was like the only one laughing to certain jokes.. shit i foudn funny. Like the part where they crash the Congressmen.. Where the bride and groom was saying their vows.. Stuff about your my shipmate and captian. Omg that made me laugh soo much!! Jovana hits me and tells me to shut up because i was the only one laughing!! Shoot dont hate on my sense of humor!! However she laughed as much as i did to the stupid stuff.. Something else i learn?? Drinking eye drops will screw you up, i dont know if it works, but maybe ill try it sometime to someone i dont like! Im glad i finally watched the movie with someone who doesnt play games...
Pretty much that was the night.. Good to catch up and chatter without worrying about things... So nice for once...
I wanna crash weddings!! I LOVE THEM!! Whos in??
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Hmm... Maybe Disney is soo innocent as it seems...
If you ever wanted to know the true meanings of movies. Take a American Cinema class. So im finally back to school and decided to take another Art class since it meets the requirements for attending UCLA or USC. I have already taking a music class, History of Rock Music. Totally loved that class.
Anywho, so im taking this class, American Cinema.. The first class i attended, we talked about Wizard of Oz. It may seem to be just a movie about this little girl who gets whisk away to this magical land who’s trying to get back home. Meets a lion, tin man, and a scarecrow. I can’t recall however it was about the characteristics of a political party. How the 2 witches represent an industrial industry against a non industrial one. However everything represents something on a political level as many movies do. However there is somewhat of a religious aspect to it. Saying how what you are missing, you need to go to this "God" to give it to you. By the time you get there, its just some man behind it. Then says tells you that whatever you need is in you all along. The problem with this is that the movie speaks to children. Not 100 percent sure what was told, it’s very broken what im saying here. It made me recall something someone told me that her dad says that Lord of the Rings has many things reflecting on God and the Bible and such. I would love to hear it. Seems like certain movies has a obvious meaning, then theres the political and religious symbolism.
Another thing I learned was the stuff about Monsters. Prime example given was King Kong. A movie about a giant gorilla brought back to America to be on display. Kong breaks free and gets the blonde hair beauty, climbs up the Empire State building and gets shot down. End of movie. However the Gorilla represents the Black Man. Kong was brought back to America on a boat in shackles as did slaves. Kong took the blonde beauty white girl which means represents a black man doing it. Climbing up the Empire State Building to the top and not looking back. Once you get what you want you have to climb and climb to the highest point. However, once you get up there. You will get shot down. In the famous quote" Its beauty that killed the beast." No the airplanes with the gun didn’t kill Kong, it was the acquiring blonde haired white girl.
Other things discussed...Vampires represent Jews. Vampires are of a higher class, very articulate and with money. They suck your blood and turn you into one of them. The way to kill an vampire is a Christian cross.. Cross of anything. As you can see, Jewish people stereotypically have money. Sucking your blood.. Your lively hood, your money. Don’t get close to one or they will turn you into one of them. Jews are also known as devilish people, and so only thing to kill them is a cross. Learning so much in this class, its just so interesting and kind of scary to see how movies can represent so many things besides the obvious.
Now.. watched Citizen Kane. A movie about Charlie Kane who has died, and before he croaked he says "Rosebud." It proceeds with a flashback of his life and brings it back to the present of someone trying to figure out what "Rosebud" meant. The only time you see Kane say Rosebud was when his second life left him and he’s going all mad and destroying a room. He stops at a snow globe and chants out Rosebud. At the very end of the movie, they are burning his processions and they throw in a sled into the fire which said Rosebud. I came to the conclusion that Rosebud was symbolic of his childhood. The childhood he lost when his mom sold him off. Before he was taken away, he was in the snow with his sled and was pretty happy. However.. My professor before we finished class.. He told us he was going to explain that "Rosebud" means Booty Call. Yes... i was shocked as much as everyone else in the class. This is going to be very very interesting.. So i kind of can’t wait to be informed on how one of the greatest films ever made can be summed down to a sexual calling between two people....
Hook it up with some "Rosebud." :p
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September 4, 2005
Smile... for me please...
Funny how once you hear a song... It just hits you.... Like wow.. This is how I feel... What's even more amusing is that if josh groban sings it, its like a train hits you... When I found a recording of "smile" sung by josh groban at tanglewood during film night with john williams. It just struck me. The lyrics and voice. Josh groban's voice is simply amazing on this song... You can hear for your self, download it below....
Smile though your heart is aching Smile even though it’s breaking When there are clouds in the sky, you’ll get by If you smile through your fear and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow You’ll see the sun come shining through for youLight up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying?
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smileThat’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying?
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
Hear Josh Groban's live rendition from Film Night at Tanglewood by downloading it HERE
Again amazing... I just wished I knew what I was doing. I've ended something special and important to me a few days ago... Finally... And officially.. I've gotten to the point where I couldn't tletmy actions and feelings take a hold of me. Actions of anger and feelings of hope, anxiety, and failure. Failure, feeling as though I've been doing something wrong. Failure of not being good enough. Even though I hid my underlying feelings, a simple unfavorable action from her could set me off. More easily recently. After recovering from the fallout the beginning of the year, which I should say was the darkest in our relationship... We tried to fix whatever we had... However very rocky at first, we talked things out and things were on the up and up. So it seemed.. At a point, I figured it was no use in me trying to put additional efforts, trying to have something, with them wasted. Its quite sad.. I was planning out her birthday... As extravagent as it seemed.. Was fitting for her... Hmmm lets see what it consisted of.. Im going to start a new paragraph, since its THAT long..
Hmm.. form of transportation?? Of course a limo.. The day i said screw it, i recieved like 20 quotes for a rental for about 10.5 hours. Yes i know.. long time and very expensive, but i didnt care. It would have been sooooo coool!! With 3 stops and a possible 4th. 1st stop?? Greystone Mansion and park in Beverly Hills. Why there?? If you seen the "We Belong Together" music video by Mariah Carey. The scenes outside and the wedding and such?? Thats Greystone, and that is the mansion. This place is sooo nice its ridonkuos!! I mean the view of all of Los Angeles and Hollywood? Its soo amazing!! I was thinking about a picnic type deal, watch the sunset, and walk around the mansion. Next stop?? Wavefest at the Greek Theatre. Jazz concert type deal with Chris Botti. One amazing jazz trumpeter!! However, i was planning to have the screens at a point say happy birthday or even have Chris say it on stage. I dont know what extent i can do and what i can have done. I am friendly with the promoter of the theatre, however i am sure at the VERY LEAST a Happy Birthday on the two screens on each side of the stage.. After the concert.. Dinner somewhere.. I was thinking at Katana or Sushi Roku.. Which are both own by Ryan Seacrest. I wanted to see if Manny.. MANNY ON THE STREETS!!! FUTURE NUMBER ONE SELLING ALBUM MANNY GUEVARA!! :) who works with Ryan can set up a private area at his restuarant and such.. I was even seeing if i could have Ryan call her and wish her happy birthday.. I dont know.. something just amazing you know?? Afterwards??? I was just thinking coming back to Rancho.. but i remembered my friend is the manager or front desk or something at the Four Seasons Beverly Hills. Go there and just chill out.. Tomorrow get a massage treatment or whatever and just hang out.. Yes i know.. too much isnt it?? Not really... Well it is to be honest.. But i dont know, in my head i thought she derserved all this and trust me, no one else has ever got me to a point where i thought about all this.. Thats most likely the very reason.. i need to take a break away from her... to get my mindset to being just normal and whatevers... I dont know how long that will take though..
Funny how we've ended it, and it always seems that we can't really ever end it. I just don't get it.. Itd be a first for me, ending something, and can't really do it and coming back. Everything tells me our thing should be much more. But maybe its just me.. Well in our case... It is just me.. I mean I've had so many broken relationships where I've been told I was cold hearted. Im not going to lie, I didn't really care. Either I was fucked over, lied to, or just something weird happened. I could have cared less if we were still friends or talked anymore. Its just so different this time, this time its my lost. Before, I would say whatever their lost, which honestly it was. Im a great person, not to toot my own horn, but im there and usually reliable. However, every time something goes awry and I choose to stop our friendship. I am lost... And I miss the girl... Really who does that? I've never really had a relationship like that, let alone a friendship. I totally will admit I need her in one form or another.Its just sad and depressing to know you've done everything you could to make this girl happy and give her things no one else would. All trying to go pass that friendship to something more and meaningful, only to have her only think as you as a friend and only a friend. I've done Floor seats to josh groban concert, who I introduced the music to her and introduced her to the man himself. Super thoughtfull birthday and christmas gifts. And of course all the little things inbetween. All in the name of somethign more than friendship, and her accepting them as gifts from a friend. Honestly, if friends were like me, I'd want some of those friends. And if this is what friends do for her, wow, she is indeed the luckiest girl alive and I never had a chance in the first place.
It just sucks... I finally figured out why I don't commit. It took a book to tell me what's wrong with me. Yeah yeah im sure you are all thinking.. Self help, how to find love blah blah. It wasn't even like that at all really.. Am I gonna name the book? No.. Because it makes me sound desperate and not that's even close. However, I've gotten by many friends, we'll not friends but ex hook ups? I guess you would call it. You are afraid of commitment, blah blah. Watch you'll commit when you find that girl blah blah. Here's what I figured out, im not afraid of commitment, im a afraid of failure. It was a friggin apifany. Everytime I get called on being afraid of commiting, I say why commit when its gonna end. And pretty much end bad. Why? There's not point. I couldn't believe it was that simple. After I figure this out, I wanted to finally commit. Commit to someone special, plus the fear of failing was apparent at first. That's what caused the inital problems in the relationship, along with the frsutration of not going anywhere. My fear went away after failing the friendship after my frustration was apparent which in turn cause her frustration numerous time. But every single time, recovering from it and being good against. I was like in awe and in shock.. This has to be different. Special.. Unique.. True.. As ryan cabrera would state.. But still... Nothing.... :(At least... I can boil down the only reasons why we had fights and arguments as friends and I hope she understands those reasons. Its just funny how our relationship was in the infancy... Lets just say, it just how it should be if we ever cross that line. But I don't know. Only the future knows what's in store for us. I do know what I wish the future holds for us. Inside joke alert... And if it takes 10 years... So be it... :) I just wish whatever I decide isn't going to be a mistake... Either keeping the distance for however long it takes for her relieze that she's needs me in her life as much as need her.. Haha yeah right... In that process It could lead to resentment on her part towards me and I totally made a huge mistake.. Cue my favorite movie... The Family Man.. Starring Nicolous Cage, Tia Leoni, and "lets hug it out" Entourage super agent, Jerermy Privin. On which, it would encounter my very first regret.. Next to that one night in tijuana with that hooker... Just kidding.. Or I can say screw my feelings.. Keep the lines of communication open.. And friendship wall up and erect... Try not to get your feelings hurt everyother day.. Be there for her.. Keep her happy while you are in agony... And maybe something will happen naturally and eventually... Haha yeah right... She's not going to change, ill be in this friendship, wondering what im doing wrong and why certain things aren't happening... So I honestly rather pass... Its really not worth it... No point in staying a relationship where its going nowhere and feeling worthless.... Hmm... Decisions decisions... Whatever I decide.. Will all depend.. I wish I had that risk assesment program ruben fiffer uses in along came polly to assest things. Well until I decide... More laguna beach hook ups.. Back to the old anh... And.... "She's out of my life/I don't know rather to laugh or cry/ I don't know rather to live or die/and it cuts like a knife/she's out of my life. Yes I know, another josh groban song.. Can't you tell by now im a huge josh groban fan? Just don't call me a grobanite... Im about 40 years away from that and of the incorrect gender.
"I feel myself surrender/Each time I see your face/I am staggered by your beauty/Your unassuming grace/And I feel my heart/Is falling into place/I can't hide/Now hear my confession."/
I know another Josh Groban song... There's no other song that describes EXACTLY how I feel about this wonderful girl. Oh well.. :(
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September 3, 2005
Wow.. Mr. West... I dont know if shoud give you props or not..
The NBC channels was airing a telethon for the relief of the damage in Louisiana. I didnt really catch much of it, however that night i noticed something that was released on the internet entitled Kanye West blast President Bush, or something to the effects of that. I didnt really take notice of it, because im trying my hardest to keep the bias to a minimal since ive been called a Liberal, like its a curse word or whatever. I dont deal with blantant Politics in my everyday life. I mean its there, but its not like i go around having debates about it. Thats where you are going to set yourself up for trouble.
Kanye West just released him sophomore album which you can listen to here on the right handed side. Its a pretty good album, i wouldnt say its better than the first. The album shows him maturity as an artist and a producer.
Anywho, this morning i see it again. I decided to download it and watch it. All i have to say is that wow, Kanye West must be really really pissed to say what he said. What he said was really specific and called out the character of the President. I mean to add to all the other insults to George W. Bush, like hes uneducated. He is not uneducated people, he went to Yale and graduated there. Is he ignorant? Well thats a total different matter that doesnt involved much education, but i really dont want to go there. West went after him, and it was a pretty big . I have the link to the video and you can judge for yourself. The usual cocky Kanye West, wasnt so cocky. He was trippen over his words, and seem like he just finished having a crying session. I think he was a little nervous to say what he did. You can tell Mike Myers, who was standing with next to him, was as surprised as Chris Tucker, who they cut to right after.
Enough about my commentary and opinions, the following link is where you can download the video yourself and form your own opinions on the matter. One thing i have to state, its not fair how they show a black family getting food and they call it looting, and how they state a white family is looking for food. Its just not right, of course there is looting. Some are looting for person gain, and others are looting to survive...
Download the VIDEO Watch it for yourself.
Honestly.. i dont know what to say. But prayers go out to the families....
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September 2, 2005
Pimping all over the WORLD!.. j/k
I ran across this pretty nifty tool. Its a map that uses Google Map to track where your visitors are coming from. I inputed a simple code this site, and if you visit my site it will be recorded. A hour later, a pin will show up on the map and state where you are coming from.
I opt for the adfree version that allows me to keep track of the last 100 visitors. Below is a screen shot of my map Saturday September 3rd, 2005 around 4:30 Pacific time.
Funny thing, i have a lot of random visitors from all over the world. I would think most of them would be around Rancho Cucamonga and Los Angeles.
Click HERE to check out the map in real time and see if your city shows up...
Thanks for all the support guys!!
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Everyone is a critic...
So while trying to update one of my site, i decided to check out my comments and see if anyone left any. Most of them are from spammers who are trying to endorse their poker websites. I dont know why its poker but it is. I ran across a commenter who kinda got me a little heated, however not really. Heres what he or she had to say...
Thank you for the interview.However, if you wish to call yourself a journalist or a writer, then please use correct grammar, punctuation, and capitalization. Maybe even make use of the spell check tool once in a while.
Your article is riddled with misspellings, incorrect sentence formation, awful grammar. It is a sad commentary on those in your profession if they do not take you to task for the lack of professionalism and pride in what you write and publish.
Better yet, how about enrolling in a journalism class, where you would learn the proper and correct way of sentence construction, and much more.
I am sure that I was not the only one that cringed while reading through the interview of Josh Groban and your observations.
Sincerely,
AAD
Now here goes my response...
Hey AAD,I just ran across your comment about the interview I conducted. I wasn't too sure if you were referring to my article or the post on the website. If you were referring to the article, then I do need to enroll in some classes and so does my editor, who has been an editor more years than I am here on Earth.
However if you were referring to my blog aka post on my website, you can kiss my ass. Pardon my French. This is my personal journal, therefore I don't need to correct spelling, check grammar or anything else you commented on. I write my entries as I think of them and how I speak, which isn't always proper. I am not getting paid for you to read my life, which means I don't care about the errors. Especially if I am my own editor, publisher, and writer. I don't proofread my entries because I am trying to crank them out asap and I am busy writing the actual articles, and going on with my life. Funny how you seem to be the ONLY one who has a problem and the rest of the world who visit my site can see what its all about.
Again if you are referring to my article, then I will have to enroll myself in a class along with my editor. If you are referring to my actual entry, once again bite me. However if you feel the need to argue with me after I explained to you my position, please feel free to email me.
Thats pretty much all i am going to say. I guess i should be happy since you know what they say, its when they stop talking about you is when you should worry. Not too sure if that saying even applies to me. Anyone else who has a problem with my website, i dont think you can find my contact information on the site yet, but here it is, anh@anh-nguyen.com Feel free to email me with your questions, comments, and concerns. Ill gladly address them.
Going to take night classes soon, what subject?? English :P
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